The Ocean will forever be Bittersweet

Last October I went to Kiawah island to find you and I found pieces of myself.

On that ocean shore

I found joy

I found wonder wild like

I found innocence child like

I felt like a little girl again

I had that boardwalk memorized

And I can feel the summer heat

On my little bare feet.

How much longer the walk back to the car felt

After a day spent making drip castles in the sand and jumping waves holding daddy’s hand.

I guess I wanted to go back in time

To a place where I could find you still alive.

I didn’t expect this, when I closed my eyes

It was as if the ocean could bring you back to me

Shimmering sand that had never been touched

This rhythm of steady waves – I’m sure it’s the closest sound to an eternal heartbeat.

Some say the ocean has no memory

But I believe it’s holding all of mine

I will always look for you there

Summer sun, sandy feet, Salty air

Waves break and there is this quiet ache in me.

Losing someone you love is losing a part of yourself

And I feel that every day,

But here on this shore

I feel pieces of me

I thought were long gone returning

like I was coming home.

I think the Ocean will forever be bittersweet for me.

Sun is setting

My feet sinking and

I can’t help thinking

What if these waves could carry me out to you.