Dear Dad, There are so many days when it doesn’t seem to get easier. I miss you It seems to get harder ... lonelier. I just want to share one more laugh with you, have one more hug from you, listen to one more song with you. Every new person that I meet I find… Continue reading Holding onto Hope
The moment we lost our loved one is so hugely defining for us. There isn’t anything in the world we can do to change that. Before the unthinkable became our reality;Before is that secure place where we lived predictable lives ... After rips off the illusion that Before wore as its mask. That mask of forever, of safe, of comfort, of trusting in futures. After seems to mock us.
Dear Dad,If I had more time with you I honestly don’t know what I would do first aside from wrapping my arms around you to give you the biggest hug ever. I do wonder, though, if I would choose to relive some of my favorite times with you or use the time creating new memories… Continue reading Dear Dad
I can just imagine the excitement in your voice now, the way you would have yelled out the score as The Tigers won their Championship game last night! I remember the first football game you took us to and getting an orange tiger paw painted on my face. I remember watching tv, sitting with my… Continue reading Clemson, Coke floats and Queen
It’s Christmas And you are not here. There is no warmth without you. How I’ve tried to make it so Wrap this pain up neatly Stuff it in a box And seal it with a bow Say something acceptable, Like, “this is tragic but we’ll all be stronger in the end.” My soul screams “no”… Continue reading Christmas without you
Very shortly after my father died a close friend of our family asked us what was it about him that we would say we missed most? My mom, my daughter and I all agreed that one of the main things we missed was his sense of humor, his silliness and how he kept us laughing.… Continue reading Legacy
It’s the first of December and James Taylor songs make me sad now. This Christmas tree makes me miss you. And pretty much everything makes me miss you today. I’m just sad. And it’s okay to let myself be sad. I’ve distracted myself with little holiday crafts, with television, hobbies, reading, conversation, kitty cuddles. I… Continue reading First of December